do not ever make the mistake of trying to look up your illness on google. which will eventually send you to about.com...which takes you on a digital rollercoaster..will have you convinced you are about to die in a month or two. from being extremely tired, and excited.. it only took 51 minutes,and about 15 clicks to imagine i was in for kidney failure. who knows maybe it is heading that way (please no comment) BUT do i really need to know that at 1 53 am? now the 7 dishes of the 180 on the menu i sampled at the wedding are threatening to ....

 well i think I've said too much for one night anyway.

 

there is a chill in the air that wraps itself around my heart.

there are friends to keep in touch with.

there is a boy.

there is me.

 

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after 28 yrs of living i feel hungover. the headache doesnt leave.